This week is exam week but i still not in the mood of study. I know that i should struggle more in studies since it is the last time i take final exam during my undergraduate. Whenever i feel like wanna start study...my right hand will just keep clicking the mouse and my eyes will just stare on my laptop and ends with dramas.....every of my friends knew it. Yesterday was my 1st exam, i m suppose to study 6 chapter 4 it but i end up roughly finish 4 chapters, but i don't really worried much about it, Tj even keep telling me that i don't have to care more because even i get all C's...my cgpa also won't below 3. True but i suddenly felt this wasn't who m i last time....i could still recalled the time when i first enter uni, i pledged that i wanna study hard to get excellent results....i did...but just for the first 2 semester. After that i lost my way, i couldn't find a point for me to struggle so hard....4 exam?..4 parents?...4 self satisfaction?...in the end it just a paper. Having this question in my mind....i didn't study very hard after that but not very terrible,just simply get an average results & i felt that i couldn't absorb much from what i learn. Sometimes i admire those who still rmb what they had learn from books even after a year. These few days, i was thinking whether i was still able 2 study as hard as last time? nope...i don't think i can, at least for now..i really not able to do so. Because what's in my mind was to settle everything here quickly and start another journey all over again in a new environment....... 
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